I Want

I want to breathe through my skin
sucking through every aching pore
the smell of the earth
and hear her breathing me in
when I exhale into her vastness

I want to know the breath you stole
with your cheating torturous lies
is blown clean by hurricanes
flowing back toward me,
wanting to be inhaled again

I want to wash the insides of my cells
with the waters of the oceans
flooding like a monster tidal wave
and feel myself taken with her when she ebbs
back to the shores of existence

I want the waters of the tears that
were torn howling from my being
as your indifference left jagged wounds
flowing back toward me
ready to spring anew in laughter and delight

I want the shadows staining my soul
to rest in the arms of the forest giants
as they fold their great wooded arms around me
taking my shadows to rest deep in their leaf litter
as we sit together in silence

I want to light the dark hidden places
where the grief you could not see in me
has flayed me naked to my bones
and allow the shadows to flow away from me
creating space for molecules of light

I want the tempest of life
to allow me to be strong enough
to withstand the crushing blows
that ride in on the back of the Valkyrie
As I stand able to love myself

I want the storms of my soul
to subside to a murmur
casting me into calm waters
where the sweetness of living
is flowing back toward me
© C Henderson2016